Looking back at my last goals update, it is interesting to see where I’ve been in this year. I can’t really say it’s been the best year can I? This injury – and subsequent surgery – have affected my life in a lot of different ways.
I’ll trust
you to read my previous goals update posts from the year to see what I’ve been
going through, but I can say that I’m in a totally different spot now. The
surgery took away my ability to do things on my own. These days, being able to
make myself my own coffee has been the biggest deal. I’m aching for the days I
can make my own meal again.
That being
said, I recognized my need for more structure last week. I’m working on doing
the things that have helped me in the past. Journaling, meditation, movement,
and learning Italian have been tasks that motivate me and help me stay
grounded. As well, I need to be doing my physio three times a day so I can
recover, so that is important to me. I want to write blog posts a little every
day so I don’t rush on Sundays to get it done, and I want to make sure I’m
getting my precious reading time in daily.
Anyone who
has been following me for a while knows that routine is a weakness of mine. I
cannot stick to it, and when I have one off day, I struggle to give myself the
space to allow that off day to happen. This summer has forced me to slow down
and take the pressure off myself. No one is expecting me to do anything simply
because I can’t, and I think that has helped me shape my life a little more. I
have the opportunity to actually sit down and figure out what goals are
important to me. These goals are what I want my life to be.
I’ve been
very gentle with myself on the prompting of my therapist. I have already failed
last week, but I started this week with a new rigour. I didn’t beat myself up and give up entirely.
I just started again. I didn’t wait for a new week or the “perfect day.” I
think this has show how far I’ve come in working on myself.
This ended
up being a much larger reflection post for me. It feels good to get that out in
the open. Leave me a comment if any of this resonated with you!
-
Daniella
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